So what was I reminded of that has me pointed in a better direction?
1) I had forgotten WHO God is and WHO has ALL authority! spoiler alert, it’s not me.
Matthew 28:17-19 “When they saw him, they worshiped him—but some of them doubted! Jesus came and told his disciples, ‘I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.”
I was at a conference last week and a speaker, Robert Madu, said, “We need an awareness of God’s authority.” Those words have been bouncing off the walls of my spirit since he said them. Jesus has all AUTHORITY! He is in charge, the big boss, the main cheese. More respectfully, The Alpha and Omega, The Lion of the tribe of Judah, the omniscient, all powerful, all present God. Come on! That makes me want to get up a do a little jig.
I forgot WHO held this all together.
When the disciples were nervous about this whole gig, Jesus said, “I have all authority…therefore GO!” All authority! Say ALL! I’m telling you this is an old revelation exploded into my heart new and fresh all over again. We were never meant to go and move in the calling He has on our lives without his power and authority. His calling on all our lives is too great for us to attempt it alone. I was attempting it alone, although I did not know it. It is hard to have confidence in God when you have forgotten WHO He is in the grand scheme of things. We have to be reminded (literally daily) who God is and what He can do, that brings me to #2.
2) Our minds must be OVERHAULED in The Word and in worship
“Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.”
I had forgotten how to DECLARE the Word of God over my mind. Our minds cannot dwell on the lies of the enemy and the truth of God’s Word at the same time. If your mind is whispering lies of defeat, failure, condemnation, and fear, then it needs to be washed in the Word. Devoted, expectant time in the Bible and in worship aligns our thinking with that of Christ. When we really soak in God’s Word and declare His truth in worship, we develop the mind of Christ. Now, I can testify that you can come to worship to check a box for the week. Or you can have your devotion time to check a box, done. If you enter worship determined to meet with God and to surrender to Him, He WILL meet you. If you open God’s Word hungry for meat to fill your soul then His Word will revolutionize your thoughts. I needed my thoughts to be not politely altered but REVOLUTIONIZED! When you don’t want to worship, You CHOOSE to worship, Why? Because your feelings are not the boss of you! You have to declare who God is in your life even when every molecule of your being is just, bleh.
Do you dwell on the Word? I wasn’t doing that anymore. Sure, I read my devotions but I was not dwelling on and soaking in God’s word. Does your heart have a song of worship threatening to spill out at any moment? Mine did not, but I can tell you what was threatening to spill out.
anger, tears, blame, hurt, fear, stress, pressure, pain
Can you relate?
2 Corinthians 5:17 “Anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!”
I didn’t feel like the a New Creation anymore. I was and am a new creation, because God’s Word is truth; but man alive, I didn’t feel like it.
1. God has all Authority in heaven and on earth. He spoke the earth into existence, i.e. I CAN TRUST HIM. He has got this. He HOLDS my babies, even if an ocean separates us. Literal tears, oh this hurts. He didn’t say it wouldn’t hurt.
2. God’s Word declares TRUTH over our lie ridden minds. The truth of His acceptance, His PEACE, His victory. The truth found in obedience, surrender, and sacrifice. Then worship places us in the correct position to hear from HIM and it EXALTS Him over our circumstance. THERE IS POWER in acknowledging God’s place on the throne in our difficult situations.
Folks, I am still in the boat with Jesus. Sometimes, I continue in the stand-off, lacking trust. Sometimes, I understand the victory and I can dance in the storm. Sometimes, I can just rest with Jesus in the peace that He had on the boat. I will be wrestling with this for a bit, but for the first time in many months I am not wrestling alone. Like the fourth man in the fiery furnace with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (Daniel 3), I know God is with me. I am so glad to be wrestling in God’s Word, wrestling in worship and wrestling covered by the power and authority of the God of the universe. I don’t have all the answers and am most certainly chief among sinners, I hear ya Paul. But by God’s grace I also see a glimpse of peace and I recognize that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
God orchestrated a whirlwind of spiritual activity over the last 6 weeks. So grateful to Jesus for continually leaving the 99 to come find me. Thank you to some amazing folks who have poured heart and soul into my tired spirit this last 6 weeks. Everyone of your efforts to minister fell on a listening, albeit somewhat hard heart initially. God used you in my life.
Faith Presbyterian Church in VA https://faithepchurch.org
Velvet Ashes Retreat https://velvetashes.com #VelvetAshes2018Haiti
Haiti Missionary Ladies/my family – Thanks for falling down and getting back up and sharing your stories. You make me better, stronger, more sane. Praying for you all as you all fight your battles in Haiti. You’re my tribe and we have a beautiful Chief.
Original Conference, Rockford, IL #originalconference http://www.originalconference.com, find a way to GO!
Nic, Trina, and Stephen thank you for sitting in the mess with me. You were my fight club last week. http://lalalovelythings.com, GET TRINA’S BOOK!
Jen DeWeerdt, https://www.cityfirst.church/contributors/jen-deweerdt, I cannot even you right now. I’ll send a note, or a video, or a novel, maybe a short documentary. Thank you, said along with my ugly cry. I am soaking in enough light these days to shine considerably brighter, even at home.
Alex Seely, http://thebelonging.co/our-team/, you speak a lot of Freedom. My heart heard you.
Robert Madu, http://robertmadu.com, Awareness of God’s authority like an echo chamber in my spirit.
Lysa TerKeurst, https://lysaterkeurst.com, Life between 2 gardens, the brokenness overwhelms some days, but I can see his protection in the pain.