How do you test a foundation? I am not a builder. I have no idea what actually goes into foundation building, specs, amount of concrete, depth needed. I know you dig down, further than seems necessary, and you place concrete, a thick slab that shores up and protects the house from destruction. I wonder though if they can be tested? How do you know if you went deep enough, if the right mixture of concrete was used? Did we come to what we know about foundations through trial and error? In some way I am sure we did. When houses we thought were safe, fell away, engineers put their minds to make making it safer, going deeper, doing math (bleh) and figuring out what is needed. The only real test, in my simple mind, is an attack on that foundation. Then you know. Well, it held or it didn’t.
The last 9 months have been a testing of my foundation as a person. Read what Matthew said about our foundation, Matthew 7:24-27 “Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.”
In this passage it is clear that CHRIST himself is the solid rock foundation our lives are to be built on. What a relief because if I had to dig deep enough or make sure I put enough rebar in the right places spiritually, I would fail for sure. I love reading the word and I desperately seek to obey Him but I fail at times to remember whose I am and I fail to lean into Him the way I should, in prayer. I am not God and the solid rock of my faith is not based on my performance. ***Sometimes my ability to carry on feels based on coffee consumption, but I digress.*** CHRIST is the solid rock and that foundation does not fail. He is an anchor that holds when the winds are trying to carry us away. Hebrews 6:19 “This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls. It leads us through the curtain into God’s inner sanctuary.”
If I could paint a picture for you of what my life has felt like the last 9 months it would be of a house stripped to its foundation over and over again. Wall up, wall down, structure in place, structure destroyed, like a tornado swirling over my life, roof pieces and security flying away from reach. In my mind’s eye though, I see a foundation that stands. Steady, un-moving, while my life continues in chaos that feels beyond my control, my foundation is steady. My anchor holds.
I had a chance this week to finish going through emails that have been piling up. Over 3,000 to be precise. It was an annoying task that caused my computer and phone to glitch and freeze. Some emails were deleted, some kept so I can apologize and respond, but every 100 emails or so, something would glitch (probably Haiti internet) and 30 of the emails and sometimes more would return. In this aggravating process I was wondering when this spiraled out of control. It was easy to find the culprit. I stayed pretty on top of email correspondence until October 4, 2016. When hurricane Matthew hit. While our belongings were safe my life was launched into a season of spinning that has just ceased. We went from Hurricane recovery, to KONBIT launch, to an unexpected house move, and through 8 teams. Here we sit staring down hurricane Irma with a pit in out stomach, as we prepare our house and try to prepare for a response after. It appears Irma will be off the northern coast but can we agree we DO NOT want this lady hitting anyone??? It is difficult to know what we can do to get ready as we have no idea how much damage will be done, if any. We try anyway.
Can I tell you that I worry the house is lifting up again in my life like a tornado has hurled it into chaos. I am standing, in the center of my home, arms lifted, on a rock that does not move. I am anchored in His truth that the most wonderful place to be is in God’s will. Here we are positioned to love and serve on the other side of whatever this storm brings. God is not moved by what throws my life into chaos and HE is my anchor. I am not moved…because HE IS NOT MOVED.
So as we prepare. I feel his presence reminding me that while everything around me moves and shifts, feels unsure, my foundation is deep, has been tested, and it holds every time.
Take a listen to the song below and remember that you are not held steady by your worth, accomplishment, skills, or anything else. When all is striped away, we stand, on the Christ the solid rock.